Computer says, “No.”

So here we are. The offers have all been made by the deaneries and I don’t have a job. Come 1st of August, I shall be unemployed.

Gutted? You bet I am. After all that has happened since February regarding my career, the prospect have having to do it all again is soul-destroying. After all the time and effort I put into the application process, I have achieved fuck all and have gotten nowhere.

The prospect of unemployment has been hanging over me for several months and now it’s actually happened I don’t feel as gutted or distraught as I thought I would. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not exactly singing from the rafters but I appreciate that things must move on.

I’m quite lucky that I have no big ties. A few years of ignoring my parent’s banging on at me to get onto the property ladder has actually worked in my favour as I now have no mortgage to pay. My previous (wannabe) international playboy lifestyle has meant that I’m not in a committed relationship and I have no children. Most importantly, I’m still young enough to retrain in a different career if it all goes really wrong and I decide to stop being a practicing doctor.

I’m not willing to move just anywhere. There are things in my life outside medicine that mean I’d try my hardest to stay where I am but I’m more flexible than some and, should push come to shove, it’s relatively easy for me to move if I have to.

There’s still a chance I could get a job this round because re-offers are being made up until 22nd of June, but I’m not putting my hopes on it. To use a quote from military strategy theory, “If plan A doesn’t work, you should move to plan B and NOT to plan A repeated.”

I have a plan B.

Hopefully, the next round of applications will be less random and hopefully they won’t disregard a year’s worth of experience as “irrelevant” like they did last time.

If you take a step back and look at it objectively, the situation seems even more bizarre. Right now, I’m working as an SHO on an incredibly busy firm and doing my job well. MMC are basically saying that I’m not good enough to do the job that I’m already doing. I applied for the job that I’m doing last year and they decided at the time that I was good enough to do it. Given that I now have several months MORE experience, have done MORE audits and MORE courses, can do MORE procedures and have learnt so much MORE than I knew then, it’s seems bizarre for them to say that I’m no longer good enough.

But computer says no so there’s no job for me – tough titty.

I was short-listed four times for interview back in March (round 1a)